Mind & Soul

There is a thought in mind to write on topic belonging to my recent struggle with life; which is by the way is nothing else than to live an empty life for about 10-15 days. Technically speaking, I had such a rush of emotions when i was hit upon with this idea that i would be staying just with me and no outside fake ventures would be dancing around to fill my life with hell wounds. But scene has something else t display.I ended up doing most of the tasks by myself and quiet finished all of them.Even helped out loved ones. I touched that side of my life which i actually lived years back. When there used to be rides in buses and rickshaws; when you actually see average human out there living and making a living. Those stinking scarfs on laborers' head which enter nose without any inhibition after you sit beside them. Or those advertisement texts over walls of elite group of factories to rectify sex problems of couples regarding you know "THE STUFF", that "slow and stead...

Astounded and Super-sane. It was never made realistic by life to put such scenario ahead of me that makes me utter both these words together. Yes! There was a time when I was as heartless as the particles of deserted sand; not willing to make way for travelers so that they can hop on to oasis. And; there was a time too, when I was as heartful as a drop of water; willing to travel each iota left on path of life. On both extremes, I always knew something amazing is surly to launch. Considering the expressions on my life chart, I very well know this. Whenever there are hard times, I simply experience something so enriching and amazing that it makes up for everything which has gone through. And I got it?? Sitting and relaxing on couch with layers of thoughts residing in mind (perhaps heart) right now, I realize how effing it all started off. There was no edge and there was no bridge, yet it unfolded; like how! I do not know and nobody knows. It has hands of nature in it. The whole whirlpoo...

The moment, The moments and never aging mementos What a surprising 48 hours I have spent! Ofcourse by GOD’s grace. Just when you stop gauging what life is going to offer you next; you are thrashed to something fascinating. And each time, it turns out more revealing. Have I ever dared to think which I actually lived today! My every cell knows I have never. It is still seems so untouched yet lively. It is still so refreshing that I can feel the moments again. I am still rewinding and pausing at my favorite frames. So if it is that flying kiss at the doorstep, if it is that warmest bye hug ever, if it is that inclination towards the knee, if it is that little moisture in eye, if it is that just 2 inch distance, if that single arm hug covering from behind, if that divine nap in cab, those multiple pecks to compliment nap and hugs, that sofa talk, that lunch with a talk bunch. Oh crap! There was a moment when I needed to chalk out the table. Yes the table. The table which summariz...

Sometimes... Yes sometimes..world seems to end..and people tend to vanish...Astounded with wonder weather I will survive or not..moving to shelter every now and then..would it even matter much.. I feel lonely and loneliness feels me... It such a same way isnt it... It will never be differnet.. Never.. Hell never.. wont ever.. and ever...

Ohhkayee!! Trust me I have taken such a deep breath while writing that okay. Last days have been too much all of a sudden. It is not something new *yawn* happens quite a lot. I read my previous post. Seriously i am amazed. It totally describes how extreme i can be. I am down with fever of emotions i think. I am filled with tears till my throat. I can burst anytime. I am controlling. I feel hopeless; no hopeless is too small. I am zeroed with hope. Infact there is not even a minus. I am smashed by a giant blow and smeared in millions of pieces. I have smiles. I have many of them. For every occasions. But there is no realm of using them. I feel i am too tired to put a smile. I need a warm hug, a broad lap and several pats on my forehead. I know it is too much to ask for. But I am not asking. I just , I just, I just hope. And you are never disallowed to hope. And now m sleepy... Bye

You have emerged as a longing touch from just a shadow, from just monotony and from gospel which i used to live by. Strides which once took me to shore, now have drenched me, till my skin, till my soul?. Deep inside, when i was afraid, I no longer feel the fear ahead. Sometimes I gauge life and take her for granted. I feel it is going to be the same. Every single time, it delights me with its wonders. Monotony is not where it belongs every time. It is what it is. It does not have a name yet. But its beautiful. Its warm, positive and adorable. These times always proves their magic. No matter how hard and tough scenarios are, you so smoothly merge in life and fight with full spree. Ecstasy this time is, it is getting more warm day by day. Brain and heart have never been in such a rhyme. It feels they have turned into an amalgam and working their part at the right time with the right cord. Though i know nothing sustains, not even feelings. They have never been. So do despair! So why not h...

Had enough of flowing winds been a rockstar in a way or two still got smashed by all force in the earth bleeding humming murmuring and yet not praying just lying without any movement pretending to die or perhaps dieing may be i will die would definitely die no, i wont i know the twists life will again make me fly fly with wings sometimes without them too it leaves me high in air bless me with no way assigned dont even whisper in my ear where to go i choose my own path i relax on my own i pick up motion on my own i give up on my own and perhaps i fell on my own i get tangled on my own and then also, i wait for nobody.. nobody and i am proud of it it does leave you alone but at least you are honest with you huh.. m done.. seriously m done i give u damn world fuck off you all i can lead my own way i have always i have always turned heads to me and i will again i will for sure suck it bitches... m js too much for u.. get the hell outa here.. huh!!