I lived with a supersoul.
Astounded and Super-sane. It was never made realistic by life to put such scenario ahead of me that makes me utter both these words together. Yes! There was a time when I was as heartless as the particles of deserted sand; not willing to make way for travelers so that they can hop on to oasis. And; there was a time too, when I was as heartful as a drop of water; willing to travel each iota left on path of life. On both extremes, I always knew something amazing is surly to launch. Considering the expressions on my life chart, I very well know this. Whenever there are hard times, I simply experience something so enriching and amazing that it makes up for everything which has gone through. And I got it??
Sitting and relaxing on couch with layers of thoughts residing in mind (perhaps heart) right now, I realize how effing it all started off. There was no edge and there was no bridge, yet it unfolded; like how!
I do not know and nobody knows.
It has hands of nature in it.
The whole whirlpool of past seems such a thrilling plot set up by the spirits. Every move is such a tiny flake but made an impact as that of a bomb.
Had it been in some other case, I know there would not have been an urge of doing what I have done this time. Is the reason behind this is that; A Gemini met a Gemini?!
One of the facts encountered is, I really dont care. I met an incredible soul and I felt how incredibly I have been fooled by thinking just by heart. I dont know why i feel a needle poking inside my heart whenever it is been echoed. Truth is sooner or later I have to realize. I did too.
The major question stranded in the field is weather I can be convenience based or I am like this only. Will I loose myself if i be in it. Hopefully life has an answer to this if it has riot to put on the same question. Lets gauge it with coming perspective of life.
Though I still can breathe it, somehow mind says it never happened. Never been given attention with so much degree and now living it with such amount of time shakes me up inside out. Was I really worth of the whole affection. Affection which were showered by a super-soul. A soul which was never existed in my world. A soul which mirrored myself. A soul which showed that a possibility of people like me still exists in this world. A soul which made wall around me in certain existence.
A soul which gave me wings while It made sure i was caressed in its lap.
Those innumerable silences, those conversation between crowded brain and eyes, those magical fingertips on all of your micro-cells, a run of multiple fingers in your brain crops just like many waves in mad ocean, those ultra fit ins as if GOD has carved the two structures just like wooden planks which only fit into each other. A big gasp every now and then; dont know what it has; sometimes a big thanks to nature for bringing this day; sometime a question mark; sometime an amazement that how both were fortunate to find each other and sometimes an exhausting breathe to take a break from genuine warm tite hug.
That first smile with dusky out-being which corner of my right eye caught while I tried to hide the super run of emotions. A dedicated rush of arms ignoring the rods in between proved me material has never been a focus for Gemini. A hidden smile in aroma, every-time there was a storm of question in air fired by me. A "no second thoughts" moment while jumping to make an entrance to create once in a lifetime warmth for each other. Graciously confessing, hiding, surviving, silencing all thoughts and conversations. Can bet my life, No two people in this world can make a miraculously feasible conversation through eyes than two Geminis. It was all about no returns and no favors; in fact No human being has ever made it so easy for my heart. It was surly a treat to my heart. Those butterflies when our roses locked and we encountered a similar rhyming of heartbeats under both the skins.
A big mummy hug full of warmth whenever Cold disrupted the senses. Those rolls and dramatic comfort at such an extent that made you feel open up your windows one by one. Certain windows' views amazed your super soul while at times your were speechless too by its own windows. The most amazing bracket came when you dont feel awkward and then there is a moment, "You have got your share of sky". The sky which is not visible to you should not even matter to you. You should be blessed and content that you have sky above. I am not sky; atleast not currently; even if I have to be; I will take my own toll. Secretly heart says I can never be. What if that takes hardships and cage moments; I have had it all and I can have it all.
I was smashed with punches of affection, I was not fed, It was my soul which was fed. Those did not feel like fingers, It felt like holy syrup, food was the coordinator, i was mesmerized by stars of mine. That candid conversation which was faced first time. Though I had ocean to puke but something held it back. I was right, this is not my sky. I was bewildered and content. It was not the words but something I was swallowing from aroma. I never believed on my eye's swallowing. But certainly my eyes and heart have grasped whole aroma with deepest penetration; I have full faith they will make me realize and observe with time what all hidden; I have in me aftermath.
Lastly souls were in full synchronization. They not only listened to the music between their silences but also entered each others space to create their own music. How fascinating life can get one should question; but even this answer is not a cup of tea of any human; only life can spill the beans. I have faith in life as I always had and certainly I will always have. Life is one which never disappoints you; in fact it is never disappointed in you as well. Just when it make you stop by bringing dead end wall in middle, perhaps It is taking its time to build a ladder other side so that if you take the courage to climb the wall; you can climb down by ladder and discover your treasure this time. I am glad I climbed up and reached on top of my wall of dead end and now I am collecting my small surprises on my ladder gifted by life. Very composed and poised steps now; to make way towards my treasure.
Sitting and relaxing on couch with layers of thoughts residing in mind (perhaps heart) right now, I realize how effing it all started off. There was no edge and there was no bridge, yet it unfolded; like how!
I do not know and nobody knows.
It has hands of nature in it.
The whole whirlpool of past seems such a thrilling plot set up by the spirits. Every move is such a tiny flake but made an impact as that of a bomb.
Had it been in some other case, I know there would not have been an urge of doing what I have done this time. Is the reason behind this is that; A Gemini met a Gemini?!
One of the facts encountered is, I really dont care. I met an incredible soul and I felt how incredibly I have been fooled by thinking just by heart. I dont know why i feel a needle poking inside my heart whenever it is been echoed. Truth is sooner or later I have to realize. I did too.
The major question stranded in the field is weather I can be convenience based or I am like this only. Will I loose myself if i be in it. Hopefully life has an answer to this if it has riot to put on the same question. Lets gauge it with coming perspective of life.
Though I still can breathe it, somehow mind says it never happened. Never been given attention with so much degree and now living it with such amount of time shakes me up inside out. Was I really worth of the whole affection. Affection which were showered by a super-soul. A soul which was never existed in my world. A soul which mirrored myself. A soul which showed that a possibility of people like me still exists in this world. A soul which made wall around me in certain existence.
A soul which gave me wings while It made sure i was caressed in its lap.
Those innumerable silences, those conversation between crowded brain and eyes, those magical fingertips on all of your micro-cells, a run of multiple fingers in your brain crops just like many waves in mad ocean, those ultra fit ins as if GOD has carved the two structures just like wooden planks which only fit into each other. A big gasp every now and then; dont know what it has; sometimes a big thanks to nature for bringing this day; sometime a question mark; sometime an amazement that how both were fortunate to find each other and sometimes an exhausting breathe to take a break from genuine warm tite hug.
That first smile with dusky out-being which corner of my right eye caught while I tried to hide the super run of emotions. A dedicated rush of arms ignoring the rods in between proved me material has never been a focus for Gemini. A hidden smile in aroma, every-time there was a storm of question in air fired by me. A "no second thoughts" moment while jumping to make an entrance to create once in a lifetime warmth for each other. Graciously confessing, hiding, surviving, silencing all thoughts and conversations. Can bet my life, No two people in this world can make a miraculously feasible conversation through eyes than two Geminis. It was all about no returns and no favors; in fact No human being has ever made it so easy for my heart. It was surly a treat to my heart. Those butterflies when our roses locked and we encountered a similar rhyming of heartbeats under both the skins.
A big mummy hug full of warmth whenever Cold disrupted the senses. Those rolls and dramatic comfort at such an extent that made you feel open up your windows one by one. Certain windows' views amazed your super soul while at times your were speechless too by its own windows. The most amazing bracket came when you dont feel awkward and then there is a moment, "You have got your share of sky". The sky which is not visible to you should not even matter to you. You should be blessed and content that you have sky above. I am not sky; atleast not currently; even if I have to be; I will take my own toll. Secretly heart says I can never be. What if that takes hardships and cage moments; I have had it all and I can have it all.
I was smashed with punches of affection, I was not fed, It was my soul which was fed. Those did not feel like fingers, It felt like holy syrup, food was the coordinator, i was mesmerized by stars of mine. That candid conversation which was faced first time. Though I had ocean to puke but something held it back. I was right, this is not my sky. I was bewildered and content. It was not the words but something I was swallowing from aroma. I never believed on my eye's swallowing. But certainly my eyes and heart have grasped whole aroma with deepest penetration; I have full faith they will make me realize and observe with time what all hidden; I have in me aftermath.
Lastly souls were in full synchronization. They not only listened to the music between their silences but also entered each others space to create their own music. How fascinating life can get one should question; but even this answer is not a cup of tea of any human; only life can spill the beans. I have faith in life as I always had and certainly I will always have. Life is one which never disappoints you; in fact it is never disappointed in you as well. Just when it make you stop by bringing dead end wall in middle, perhaps It is taking its time to build a ladder other side so that if you take the courage to climb the wall; you can climb down by ladder and discover your treasure this time. I am glad I climbed up and reached on top of my wall of dead end and now I am collecting my small surprises on my ladder gifted by life. Very composed and poised steps now; to make way towards my treasure.
ur blog's title is mind and soul
ReplyDeleteand i feel honored when u call me a super soul
will keep posting as and when i can
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Said and wrote what consisted of my heart..:)..Honored you acknowledge it in such way..
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