Overturned........

The moment, The moments and never aging mementos

What a surprising 48 hours I have spent! Ofcourse by GOD’s grace. Just when you stop gauging what life is going to offer you next; you are thrashed to something fascinating. And each time, it turns out more revealing.

Have I ever dared to think which I actually lived today! My every cell knows I have never. It is still seems so untouched yet lively. It is still so refreshing that I can feel the moments again. I am still rewinding and pausing at my favorite frames. So if it is that flying kiss at the doorstep, if it is that warmest bye hug ever, if it is that inclination towards the knee, if it is that little moisture in eye, if it is that just 2 inch distance, if that single arm hug covering from behind, if that divine nap in cab, those multiple pecks to compliment nap and hugs, that sofa talk, that lunch with a talk bunch. Oh crap! There was a moment when I needed to chalk out the table. Yes the table. The table which summarize my last few years. Table which actually makes me cry in shower. Table which makes me more eager to place my head in mom’s lap atleast once before either of us don’t remain on earth. Anyways, glad I was shown to it again. Though I was sure and had a hint but never gave it much attention. Perhaps time has come to get into the business and stop playing video games. More detailing is required to know myself and my moves. More importantly my reasons behind those. May be I had some genuine ones. Anyways, Lets kick start.

What good I have done

What in return

24/7 support

Good time

Texted and called back whenever I felt I am needed

A hope

Ignored job and studies too on occasions

An expectation followed by setback

Neglected sleep to talk and console

Drive to give multiple chances

Made sure I am a good friend

Feeling of being that someone special which no more seems genuine.

Made sure I am always there

A blessing that I deserve a nice life.

Have hidden my hurted feelings to make him happy

A blessing that I am sweet.

Kissed while not being in mood just to be in the company

In some cases, A request to be genuine friends.

Did the bedact just to survive the relationship

No support on career front

Never showed my despair and continued with same approach when did not get what I expected.

Useless fights and bad memories

Treated them as kids

Health issues

Never took favors

A less time with siblings

Been honest in terms of expectations

Irritation in life

Been myself everytime

Never thought ill of them

Always played as per their demand

There is a lot to it. The prominent ones are just these in mind. Hopefully will add up more but candidly speaking, I would hardly like to recollect those times.

On that note and surviving such a mess even in writing; makes me feel zero. A simple zero; not as a human but zero on life.

Just to give a finishing touch……

Tum sath toh mere rehte ho;

Par hath badha kar kehna hai,

Ye pal jo baandhey hai humko;

Ab isko sanjha karma hai.

07 oct 2010

11:04 pm

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