Short Story- A day in my life

12-march-2009

Day started as usual. I was up by 6:45 a.m. I was little happy as two more days to go for weekend. I was also excited as i had done waxing and threading so i was all ready to wear this new kurti of mine which i bought last. I called Kavi at 6:30 and felt kind of burdened to give him a call. I feel this now a days more often that giving him a call is like a duty. In the morning itself i feel terrible giving him a call. I dont know what the hell is happening to me. Is it a crush? or was it a crush? I am a bitch if i am playing with him. May be this is the way i love. Perhaps, because I am irritiated with this fact that he is not around and i dont think so there are good chances he and me will be meeting in coming days.

Anyways no benefit in carrying this on. So I went to loo and spent 5 more minutes than usual as i was not feeling well from stomach part. I have got Gas as i had around 20 those stupid hajmola type tablet. I needed some burps and farts which i am not really good at. Still i went out and took bath, wore new kurti and got amused at me in the mirror quite a times. Then i got lunch and fruits.

Finally i am back on fruit schedule. Thanks to mum. Sometimes she gets us fruits when she thinks!

I was happy as i get to spare 2 minutes to have my tea peacefully.

Then i gave a call to kavi. He was not feeling well. Now a days it is happening more. I am getting sick of it as i am totally helpless. Most of the times he is complaining and this is not what i was looking for. Again differnet tinge of my character. Am i really a bitch? What if i am? I deserve to be happy.

Cab was fine.Back seat dint let me sleep but thanks to song and my excitement towards new kurti that i was not bugged and talked to kavi peacefully.

I was in office and arunima complemented me genuinly. I could see that. I went for a tea. This is my favourite time when i am all settled and having tea in the courtyard with team mates. I really enjoy this. Probably this is first good moment I am enjoying.

Got on with some training in office. The trainer is like a gora. And he sucks. The fact that he is on job grade of 11 makes me miserable.I pity him too though but i think he is really not bothered if somebody is really intersted or not!..

So i am attending the training with interest and loose my attention in between imagining myself with kavi. Why does it happen to me always when i am in middle of something important. So i imagine for half n hour n then shake myself or rather kick my ass, imaginary u see. This gas in stomach is making me more miserable. So that blonde dum trainer allows for a break and we go for breakfast.

Divya, Ruksana and akash are there to accompany me. I dont like the company though. I had limca and a bite of the parantha which would make me guilty if i have more. So i resume to training. I wait for lunch now. I decided to skip lunch but i think i will take smething light. So again i had lunch. Kadhi and roti. Khana thankfully was not so interesting. I went to TT in lunch which i was enjoying for a change.

At 2:35 we moved to training and thanks to mukul i got to know what was actually happening. We did the exercise together.It was great i got to know what was happening.

Then some jokey moments with anurima and mukul, i think second best moment of my day.Laughed out loud.

I had paneer kulcha in the evening and got a cramp in my lower stomach.I then wrapped up and moved to my cab.I gave a call to him.He was busy but i explained him about cramp and i could feel he was busy. Anyways cab was kinda gud while returning. As usual shubha cracked some sleezy jokes ,some of them made me laugh though.

I got back and had a worry as i had to do laundry and then yoga and situps. I am really happy wiht myself as i did laundary, situps and yoga as well. I had tea and sandwithces. I danced too. I talked to Kavi then. I had a good talk but he mentioned kripa in between which i dint like. I can feel his double standards here. I dont like it. The worst part is, he knows this and is still mum. Go to hell man! I dont give a damn! I think i cant take it more. I had dinner and good game of badminton. The third best moment of my day. Bhai and behen wanted to have ice cream. I like them when they are happy.

Mum, as usual, was eager for stuff. Again it feels miserable that I cant have a mother!

Anyways i cant really cry over one sorrow..

Its a life.

Papa arrived.

I thought i will again have some good talks with kavi which he cudnt. I think we both are expecting something or the other from each other. Again i am depressed.

Sometimes i dont like those looks on my father's face.

I remember those days which i dont want to!!!!!!

Anyways tried calling up kavi but he is asleep without taking medicine. Fuck off!

I will also sleep as if it is matter of life or death to ANYBODY!

BYe!