Don’t we just know it
Writing it, even after weeks it happened, makes me realise that it is still not faded and is actually refreshed as it was then and there. Where to start and possibly where to end are going to be the hardest question ever to deal with.
Time and life, often blend into each other with such a stark beauty that a mere human ends up being numb. Such phenomenon does not happen every now and then; hence soul makes it a big deal into one’s life. You never know what actually does it has in its content; still you go with it; in the hope that you will finally unravel it.
But destiny unfolds and suddenly you are just comfortable with it. Yes there is vast change in plans, many disappointments but time is the best remedy. This remedy has lately; kind of worked faster than ever.
Still not able to gauge why I come back to zero.
Taking theory in my mind “hope for the best and prepare for the worst”; I have done some amendments in my walk of life. Though I know other side has limitations and some more; this time it is not going to be about “other side”. This time it is about myself (As it always has been, without fail, lol).
Seeing the same face between those sparkling ears and finding the warmth even when there were half a kilometre distance; made me realise those lost time were actually never happened. Possibly even the distance was created by the destiny to make us realise that we actually have lot to spell. Which by the way we did! (As we did before; India-gate has witnessed!)
It was calm this time
It was calmer as ever
I could sense no runs in mind
I could sense other side more sorted
I could sense the side was happier
I could hear exact sighs.
I could see wonderful droopy yet composed eyes.
I could feel his non-vulnerable gestures.
He was him-He was me-I was that-That was then-That then is still continuing-I am still living that-I will continue living that-I would never guess that-I can give it a name-I would not give it a name- You have to bid for it now-You have to make a vow-You have to make it worth-You have to take the trip- It cannot be so vanilla-It has a heavenly aroma-And I know what I am going to get-This is not first time it will be etched.
Anyways
More important fact of the whole divine ride was that I was me. Indeed I was me. I knew I was working. I was always running high in the head. Somehow I left no stone unturned. I made sure it has to be the best. This time it has to go as per the nature persists. I did so. No grudges hold to heart and everything was told; could not utter the whole episode. Glad; I puked later.
It was shown that a real show of life is sketched out of real bonds. Real bonds do exist. How come a normal; even a very routine bond of life becomes a back bone of life.
Being a dreamer and destiny revealer; heart tries to find out the reason for millions of things. Heart tries to poke other heart for so many conclusions; ”nevermind” is the answer always.
World has it like “better late than never”; for me nature scribed “better never than late”
I took a step.
Possibly I am meant to learn compromises filled life. So here I am. This time; too; made a vow to myself and withdrew all from you.
It does not hurt now surprisingly. Reason is I don’t hide anything down there in my heart. It is always mirrored to you.
You being you can be you or can be REAL you.
Choice is always left with you. I am leading my deliberate mysterious life which now I don’t look forward to find any meaning for.
P.s- May be it was thought that it will be about all the good times shared and spent but sadly/happily heart dint write that. I am blanker and cloud has passed. The only source of contentment is that you still be looking positively at it and I am still in a fix why the hell I am always part of losing side! Gig with you is that; each ray of my breath witnesses it still; each sight of your eye witnessed it and you still turned towards limitations!
Damn it, Don’t we just know it?!
Time and life, often blend into each other with such a stark beauty that a mere human ends up being numb. Such phenomenon does not happen every now and then; hence soul makes it a big deal into one’s life. You never know what actually does it has in its content; still you go with it; in the hope that you will finally unravel it.
But destiny unfolds and suddenly you are just comfortable with it. Yes there is vast change in plans, many disappointments but time is the best remedy. This remedy has lately; kind of worked faster than ever.
Still not able to gauge why I come back to zero.
Taking theory in my mind “hope for the best and prepare for the worst”; I have done some amendments in my walk of life. Though I know other side has limitations and some more; this time it is not going to be about “other side”. This time it is about myself (As it always has been, without fail, lol).
Seeing the same face between those sparkling ears and finding the warmth even when there were half a kilometre distance; made me realise those lost time were actually never happened. Possibly even the distance was created by the destiny to make us realise that we actually have lot to spell. Which by the way we did! (As we did before; India-gate has witnessed!)
It was calm this time
It was calmer as ever
I could sense no runs in mind
I could sense other side more sorted
I could sense the side was happier
I could hear exact sighs.
I could see wonderful droopy yet composed eyes.
I could feel his non-vulnerable gestures.
He was him-He was me-I was that-That was then-That then is still continuing-I am still living that-I will continue living that-I would never guess that-I can give it a name-I would not give it a name- You have to bid for it now-You have to make a vow-You have to make it worth-You have to take the trip- It cannot be so vanilla-It has a heavenly aroma-And I know what I am going to get-This is not first time it will be etched.
Anyways
More important fact of the whole divine ride was that I was me. Indeed I was me. I knew I was working. I was always running high in the head. Somehow I left no stone unturned. I made sure it has to be the best. This time it has to go as per the nature persists. I did so. No grudges hold to heart and everything was told; could not utter the whole episode. Glad; I puked later.
It was shown that a real show of life is sketched out of real bonds. Real bonds do exist. How come a normal; even a very routine bond of life becomes a back bone of life.
Being a dreamer and destiny revealer; heart tries to find out the reason for millions of things. Heart tries to poke other heart for so many conclusions; ”nevermind” is the answer always.
World has it like “better late than never”; for me nature scribed “better never than late”
I took a step.
Possibly I am meant to learn compromises filled life. So here I am. This time; too; made a vow to myself and withdrew all from you.
It does not hurt now surprisingly. Reason is I don’t hide anything down there in my heart. It is always mirrored to you.
You being you can be you or can be REAL you.
Choice is always left with you. I am leading my deliberate mysterious life which now I don’t look forward to find any meaning for.
P.s- May be it was thought that it will be about all the good times shared and spent but sadly/happily heart dint write that. I am blanker and cloud has passed. The only source of contentment is that you still be looking positively at it and I am still in a fix why the hell I am always part of losing side! Gig with you is that; each ray of my breath witnesses it still; each sight of your eye witnessed it and you still turned towards limitations!
Damn it, Don’t we just know it?!
now we do :)
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